I'm so stressed out. I'm having an extremely hard time sleeping lately. Too many things happening.
On good side. I'm giddy just thinking that I may ask someone out for a date this week (hopefully). It's a difficult situation because she's a customer at the shop I work. So I've opted for an old fashioned letter, rose and chocolates given out proximity to St. Patrick's (perfect opportunity).
On the bad side, I have to start paying my college loans next month (I've already run out my extension). Easy fix. Get a second job, right? Well, not happening at the speed I want.
Also on the bad, side, people who don't even live in Austin, have decided that for th next few years - starting this year some bus routes will be eliminated while others are added. The bus route which takes me to my job was slated for cancellation. No substitutes. If I want to work, I'll have to walk 5 miles a day. No alternative methods for me, other than bicycle and foot. It gets really hard when the weather in Austin turns bad. Not fun walking in 40 Celsius / 104 Fahrenheit weather in summer.
The solution is to move to another place.
More good news: I have found an opening at a coffee-house very close to my job - very short distance actually. This means I save on commute.
Also, I found someone renting a room in a private condo also at a very short distance from both said job and my current job.
Triple win situation, right? Girlfriend, Job, Apartment. All can be fixed next week.
On the other hand I can lose all three as well. With my luck, I wont get the job, I will be rejected romantically and I wont get the convenient apartment. Will have to resort to negotiations with lender to prevent my income from being forcibly curtailed by the lender (college loans in the US are non-forgiveable - no exceptions). I could ask for a prorated payment to match my income - but either way, I need to increase my income.
And while being pessimistic, I'm also giddy, happy and fantasizing about a possible romance with a lady I really like.
Moving, new job and girl potentially in the remainder of the month!!! GAH! TOO MUCH STRESS. I CAN'T SLEEP! TOO MUCH INFORMATION RUNNING THROUGH MY BRAIN!
I THINK I'M GOING TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK!